buset dah

hari itu terik bgt n gue uda ngos2an jln bwt mkn siang ma temen gue d city. (sumpe, cape bgt!)

dan gue ngeliat kambing tengah jalan lgi kencing.

gue kaget.

gue shock.

gue bengong.

si kambing yg wrna abu2 itu keliatanny lost.

smua org ketawa n gue cekikikan hihihihiihhi..... hohohohooh... hahhahahh....

lucu bgt nh kambing, udalah gue ikutin.

lewat jaln msk k business area, s kambing abu2 ini msk k satu bank dmna satpamny dg bengongny. gue celingukan nyari pemilikny n nyadar klo msh ada 1 ekor lgi ma 1 org. hohohoho...><

eh tnyata si kambing abu2 ini bnr2 bandel ampe akhrny 1 org polisi cwo ( cakep lho!) hueheheheheh nangkep nh kambing. untung gk diseruduk pak! trs dy melototin s pemilik ma kambing yg 1 ny lagi. buset dahhh....

singkat crta dg suksesny ng org ditilang. mngkn krna bwa kambing k tengah kota kali yee.... apa mungkin krna kambingny mau ngerampok bank? ato krna mbekny kencing dg coolny di tengah jln? hahahaha

we'll never know....

clbk -CINTA LAMA BERSEMI KEMBALI-

honestly i never think that clbk2 thing ini bsa bersemi kembali. scra gue anggp y itu hanya masa lalu and the way it should be. huehehehehehheh

permulaanny bgni::

wktu gue sma dlu, ad 1 cwo yg dket bgt ma gue. tpi y bhng gue dngr gosip klo nh cwo psiko y gue takut lah. ialahhhh.... masa gk takut, gue gk normal dunk?
dan dg cool-ny si cwo ini nembak dpn 1 kelas.
benar sodara2 DI DEPAN 1 KELAS.

gk usah tnggu bsok, pas break gue ditanya trus: lo trima gk si xx ini? bae lho..

omg..

cuma itu yg ada d pikiran gue yg pendek ini.

stlh pikir panjang (panjang bgtttt 1000 km lbh)..
gue mutusin tolak dy.

malemny dg menguatkan hati dan iman gue telp dy dg gagah berani
dan bilang: sori gue rsa bettr temenan dah...

dan untuk saat itu gue seneng. at least selesai.

eh bsok paginy

eveline! parah lo, lo nolak xxx ya?????? tega amat lo???? treak temen gue
*shock* n *kaku*

what the!!!????
tnyata smua org uda tau, s xxx ini ngsh tau mrka
bgus bgt.
disaat kyk gni lah gue bharep gue bisa taro muka gue d pantat.

and 5 years passed..

dan skrg gue berhadapan lgi dg xxx dg temen gue yyy yg nanya apa gue msh ada rsn ma dy

jujursh gue binun. maybe yes maybe not. because itu kn uda past.
tpi gue pikir aolah kita coba.

dan dsilah gue, ngeliatin noti fb yg bikin gue binun apa yg akan gue jawab. hahahhaha

maybe this is what we called love

driving us crazy and killing us softly.

and past wont be past that we can forget.

while past can be future as well...

and logic wont work in this matter..

bloddy hell!

again and again.

oke ini bukan lgu avril lavigne yg girlfriend itu cuma mirip itu. at least itu kondisi gue skrg. *sigh*

well, out of to our main menu.

gue uda baikan ma nyokap. at least it getting better sh walau gue mkin dikekang but i guess it is ok right? told ya sumthing, when u cant fight it just become friends of it! easy right? although its break my heart so deeply.

and my dad? yeah he's going to be okay. i love him more than everything.

cuma masih tetep aj ( n gue rsa susah skali bwt brbh) klo nyokap gue msh demand sesuatu yg gue anggp rda imposibble.

yup, bloody hell imposible.

dy mnta gue plng di bwh jam 9.. and it meansssss..... no bar, no k****l ( ok this one is not a problem) and no ladies nite out!!! *sigh* cape dheeee......

well im gonna give it a shot though.

and i had my funny story and lovely day today:

crtany dimulai wktu gue ma temen2 gue prgi ke lumiere bwt maen basket after meeting ( map pak, sya tidur. abs sya gk ngrti topikny, jd mndng bobo lah)

dan mrka mulai maen basket gue bengong trs mutusin maen capitan dan.... KALAH. -_-'

alias gk dapet ( gk pntng dah)

si A who is the leader bilang: males maenny gk ada yg ngalahin sh
gue (dg kerenny) : u know what, sepandai pandainy tupai melompat jatuh jga lho

trs dimulailah babak k 2 .

si A (yg kbykn ngeremehin dr pda menghargai) : ....( sambil mulai celingukan)
si B: (dengan gagahny masukin bola ampe nilai yg lbhhhhh tinggiii drpda s A)
gue: YE! YE! GO! GO! B! U ARE SO COOL!!!!!!! GO! GO!

gtu trus ampe mati.
YA GAK LAH!!!

dan sodara2... hasilnya..... jeng jeng jeng!!!!! SI A KALAH DG SANGAT AMAT MEMALUKAN!!!

gue: *ktawa setan ala neneklampir*" hohohohohohohohoh... sukurrrrr!!!! makan th!"

si A : *sok cool* ya kali2 mengalah lah, kn lgian gue gk srius tdi pas srius uda ktinggln jauh.

gue: gk bsa gk bsa aj dah.

si A : *bte mampus ma gue*

ahhhhh.... adem sariiiii..... uups th ma iklan. mksd gue ahhh.... puasny diriku.

lesson for today:

bhng biar bisa dipublish tnpa gue mnta izin orgny gue samarin aj ya.

well... gue klo lagi stres ykluarlah itu yg namany kebon binatang+ shit+ fuck+ damn + dkk

and this is my habit that i really need to change

lgi buka fesbuk tiba2 gue ngeliat inbox gue nambah

gue buka,
from xxx

intiny aja yah gue males ngetikny: crta dunk klo ada apa2. jgn nggunain swear2 gtu. kn gk enk dibacany. apalgi lo anak grja n org grja jga gk enak kli ngeliatny. apalgi image dr org luar, psti buruk dah.

Gue: ooh.... shit.

and gue mutusin not to reply.

why?

because some secret are not meant to be revealed..

complicated things

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

-broken string- nelly furtado feat james morisson

gue slalu coba yg terbaik bwt hal ini.
apa salah klo gue pgn control over my own life??

is it that wrong to have fun??
well, gue mulai menyadari klo d hidup ini there always been sacrife to gain something

and there will be always pain
pain will make us stronger.

tears down to my cheek and my heart hurts so deeply.
for a moment i really wish i can die

whats the point of having ur life which u cant control and use it?

maybe i was stupid and i cant make my plan well.
from past i wish that oneday i able to spread my wings and fly away from this living hell

a couple minutes ago i felt its better for me to die.
u can say i fail in my life, stupid and any other all damn fuck things on me

but i feel like shit right now and i dont know what to do
it feels like u are a bird and u r inside golden cage
everything seems too perfect to be with all that facility right in front of ur eyes
only one thing i cant get
my life

how many times i need to pray, asking God how to put an end to this?
ooww,,., give me a break i just want trust from u guys
to trust me and believe in me.

well i write this blog so u can understand me and i will pray so u wont feel the same as me

or another choice

u fight, 50% fail and 50% sucess

the finance exam

i just had my exam.

yes, a damn stupid exam.

gue rsa sh gue confidence bwt bbrp soal cuma gue ama skali gk yakin gue bsa pass ato gk. masalahny, byk yg gue longkapin booo....
kata sapa tuh suruh longkapin trs balik lgi? gue uda kyk gtu, gk ngaruh tuh, worse malah. (bagus sekali.)
soal k1; gue balik aj dhe k ini ntar, cuma teori. nembak jga bisa. selesain yg laen dlu lah yaaa (pikir gue)
soal k2 (a n b) : hmm... ini gue bsa yg a n yg b lumayan..
soal k3; bisa separo
soal k4: tae lo,. mna nilai paling gede lgi... arghhhhh,., i hate annuity!!!!
soal k5: 3/4 bsa
soal k6: bsa lah.. ini mah ok
soal k7: paling gk ini satu2ny soal yg gue yakin

pas 3 mnit trkhr, gue msh stuck ma soal no 4 itu. n gue bener2 lupa klo soal no 1 blom gue krjainnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...... mampusssssssss
pas dikumpul gue msh ma soal 4.
bbrp detik abs ngumpul, gue bru inget th soal no 1.

omg.. it really SUCKSSSSSSS

huhuhu... what i can do is only pray to God..

hohohohoho... but i wont miss out next time and i will not mess up with my next exam, economy.
oke see u guys and wish me luck in this cute economy exam. heheheheh and gut lak for all of us who has exam. :)

serba serbi tentang minum

selama di oz ini gue tertarik bwt nyoba minum. oke,its not good, but under special circumstances ndak opo ya boooo

first time i went inside to the bar i felt so guilty. tpi second, third and more.. ehem.,. i feel comfortable. so its only matter of our feeling actually. when u say yes i can, then ur body will follow the decision. so dont afraid to try this thing! ( in positive purpose)

gue jdi inget ptama kali gue prgi k bar. uumm... pikiran gue nanya mulu, kita ini bole ato gk sh? mangny ini gk haram gk sh????
and then i conclude:
that it depends, if u make it bad then it will turns bad. but if it is for good then it will be for good.
i just try to be netral as possible :)

about this one i have one story.. hahahahha... hope u guys will enjoy it :)

wktu sore itu gue k bar ma genk gue. kita bwa anak yg msh... bawah umur. sebenerny sh gue cuma pgn aj biar dy gk katro2 amat biar tau gtu. uda ampe dsna, gue ma temen gue mesen beer ma bay ley. sebel bgt gue, th bar ley diksh dikit bgt!!! rese, give me back my 5.7 dollar!!!!
si anak itu yg pgn tauuuuuuuuuuuuuu bgttttttttttt melas2 gue pgn coba. atas dasar, oke lah ya, wong cuma seteguk ato 2 gk pa2 lah ya. trs dy minum n tereak, wah enak bgtttt!! mau dunk gueeee!!! gue ma temen2 gue uda bilang ke dy jangan soalny dy kn msh bgtu. eh dy ngotot. yuda dy kasih. jdi dy mesen th chicken breast ma bayley dg share ma temen gue itu.
tegukan pertama: masih normal
tegukan ke2: mulai keliatan rda gk beres
tegukan ke 3: uda mulai meracoo
gue pikir ah masa sh, bru jga brp teguk. masa mabok? celakany, gue bner2 lupa kalao temen gue itu GK PNAH MINUMMMM
tegukan k4: kita uda mau ambl minumny ngeliat gejala2ny ini tpi dy mati2an pertahanin kyk indiana jones pertahanin crystal skullny dr penjahat.
tegukan ke 5: kaki mulai naek k temen gue, galak mampus. tiba2 tereak: WOIIIII!!!! MAKAN INI!!!!! ke trmrn gue yg biasany lebih galak ma dy
gue: eh eh lo mkn aj dhe sbelom terjadi apa2 ma kita.
temen gue yg pesen beer: ketakutan trs mkn
temen gue yg laen: ehh cabut aj yuk kita bwa anak yg under nh ntar klo knp2 ma dy kita ygb kena lho.
gue: yuda cabut lah.
temen gue yg pesen beer: LETS GO!!
akhrny kita cabut dg memapah anak yg uda hangover berat itu. gue coba mapah dy, tpi sumpah
berat lho, gue aj ampe gk kuat. eh pas dy turun tangga dy jatoh dg sukses. untngny bkn kejembab gtu tpi lemes aj kakiny. tpi untungny lgi. temen gue megangin, jdi gk parah2 amat.
tpi kocak bgt lho org mabok. ngomong gk jelas, jalan uda kyk di kapal, goyang sni goyang sana. lo kira goyang ngebor?????
gue ma temen2 gue makin panik.
temen gue: eh lo bli susu dhe.
akhrny gue beli th susu trs gue ksh. eh tauny nh anak malah muntahin. alamakkkkk.... yuda gue anterin k rmhny.
seriously, gue bru pnah ngeliat org mabok yg parah bgt d dpn muka gue lho. tnyata.... mabok itu bsa beragam dy stres jd galak, dy takut jd berani, dy lurus jadi miring! hihiihihihi....

-the end-

oia, just for information;
bay ley itu enak jga lho, must try thing nh.

knapa gue pilih kangkung terasi

alasan pertama:
mannnn,.,.,. gue suka bgt kangkung terasi. pa lgi klo di pangkep di muara karang. hmmm... klo lo pda blom tau n tertariik lo hub ....oh bukan. jgn liat tpt tpi suer, ikan bakarny baronanng ny enak bangetttttt....mammamia!!!!!
jangan liat tempat ny ( mang kaki lima sh,.) tpi liat rasany, hohohoohohoho....
by the way today is rda mendung bkin gue pgn tidur aj, pdhl rmh gue kn jauh, boro2 bsa tidur d rmh. mentok2 gue paling tidur di perpus ambl bkin pulau. *sigh*


oke, aiowei, i gonna have my FUCKING EXAM next week. please2 please... pray for me....><